Saturday, June 16, 2012

Burden In My Hand

Follow me into the desert
As thirsty as you are
Crack a smile and cut your mouth
And drown in alcohol

'Cause down below the truth is lying
Beneath the riverbend
So quench yourself and drink the water
That flows below his head....

-Favorite Song Lyrics

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Welfare sucks!

I've been working my butt off for CalWorks & no money.  So I'm gone 10 hours a day at a time & I'm not making any money for it, which really bothers me.  You see, I have to put in 35 hours a week, in work experience, just so I can keep my welfare benefits.  Welfare sucks.  I hate it.  I've got to find a real job, but how?  I live in a small mountain community where jobs are very few & low paying.  My hubby's not working either.  If it weren't for our dear friends, I would be homeless.  Anyway, my dream is to have & run my own business.  I don't know how, but I'm praying for something....

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Church Band

Well, I finally mentioned it to my pastor that I wanted to join the band!  And I told him why.., I'm trying to inspire Rick and get him back into music.  I miss it, too.  I would always look forward to his next gig.  Frick!  If he can't do it by himself  I think I have to get involved.  My fear is always that this is something selfish of me to want.  Looking back, I always wanted to sing but was too shy & insecure.  Now, I'm getting pissed!  I'm tired of waiting for something to happen.  Perhaps God  wants me to make the first move?  Maybe I have to, know in my heart, that this is what God wants.  I wish I had a crystal ball.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Hiccup!  Why do we get those anyway?  I can't stop!  Can't sing anymore, damn it!  So it's been awhile since I posted.  Too much going on in my life.  I wish I could just focus on music.  So I'm thinking I should give the church's band a try.  Don't always care for the songs but maybe this could start me on my way.  Hubby's not wholly into it, but if I were involved, perhaps he would be.  My hubby has gotta rock...and so do I.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Kitten Having Kittens

I'm now a great grandma? (In the cat world, that is).  I can't believe this happened.  After all the efforts, by the whole family, to keep this from happening.  Shit!  Poor little Vixey, only 9 months old and already very pregnant.  I hope Pat doesn't notice yet.  We're broke & already have too many animals.  Thankfully the kids already put the word out, and already 4 of the kittens have homes. 

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Civil War Reenactment

Well, this is the first weekend spent 'out on the field', in a manner of speaking.  Our dear friends have been going to these 'Civil War Reenactments' for quite a few years and my hubby & only two of my kids (my oldest is eighteen & too busy for us), went along.  I stayed behind to puppy-sit my oldest daughter's Valentine's gift.  Yeah, I totally feel like a grandma!  Poor thing, though.  She's getting over parvo.  Thank goodness our friends are nurses.  I can't do IV's!
Anyway, it worked out for me because I really do not enjoy camping.  Not only are you reenacting a past time period (no modern conveniences), but at the end of the day your frickin' camping.  To me, it's roughing it.  I'd rather not!  And, it's supposed to rain on Sunday.  And, aunt Flow came to visit.  So forget it.  I'll stay home & puppysit.  Hubby can go to the fair in my stead.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Damn it!

Well I'm pissed.  Was hoping to catch up on my online courses but I had a few snags this past week.  I'm going to have to drop a class just so I can catch up with the other.  Damn it!  Oh well, perhaps this will get me ready for next semester.  Maybe I can take a summer course?  mmm?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

FOOTPRINTS (A favorite poem)

One night a man had a dream.  He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.  Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.  For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.  He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.  He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it.  "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.  But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.  I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child.  I love you and I would never leave you.  During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."